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Sunday, January 31, 2010

An Alcoholic Confronts His Addiction

Sometimes the struggle between an alcoholic and his addiction can be fierce. He knows what will happen if he takes the first drink. He remembers all the shame and guilt from all the other times when he gave into it. Yet, at times, the desire is so strong that he just doesn’t care about these things.

When I wrote this dialogue, it didn’t take me long to realize that I was going to have to get to my point and end it soon. Writing this took me back to some of those times when I let the “bottle” win. I wasn’t just seeing an empty whiskey bottle, but the color of the liquid contents as well.

Things like this can be triggers for us alcoholics. It triggers our memories of what we thought were the good times. During one of my conversations with my former therapist Kara, I told her that for me just filling up ice trays was a trigger. I still recall the funny look she gave me. She understood when I explained that I never filled up the ice trays unless I was going to the store for a bottle.


Me: What do you want? Why are you even here?

Bottle: You know the answer to those questions without asking me.

Me: The only answer I have for you is that your promises are empty lies.

Bottle: Now, you know that’s not true. But to answer your question, I’m here because you want me. We’re friends, remember?

Me: Friends? You’ve got to be joking! Friends? All the lies you’ve told me. All the misery you’ve caused.

Bottle: You sure didn’t talk this way to me all those times you drank my contents. What? Don’t you recall all the pleasure I gave you? Don’t you recall how I took all your troubles away? I’m simply here because you want these things again.

Me: Have you got an ego or what? I bet you even believe your own lies! Yeah, you gave me pleasure all right. You even took my troubles away. But when I sobered up, where were you then? Oh, you were still here. I could hear you laughing hysterically at me.

Bottle: Laughing? Me, your best friend? Why would I do that?

Me: Yeah, you. And some friend you were. Give me pleasure and take away my problems for a few hours. But then what? For days afterward all the guilt you left behind. Where were you then? Where were you when I suffered through all the things that I allowed you to cause me to do? Let me make one thing clear. I have true friends now that put you to shame! I’m through letting you shame me. Get out!

Bottle: But…

Me: I said get out!

Bottle: You don’t really want that. Wait! What are you doing? No! Don’t smash me, you’re only friend! No! Please…

Me: I know what I want and it definitely is not you!


If you or a loved one thinks you may have a problem with alcohol, please call one of the numbers below or check out these sites for help.

Alcohol Abuse and Crisis Intervention: 800-234-0246
Alcohol and Drug Abuse Helpline and Treatment: 800-234-0420
Alcohol Hotline Support & Information: 800-331-2900

How To Find AA Meetings
National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism FAQs
Mayo Clinic--Alcoholism

Posted by LoneWolf at Sunday, January 31, 2010

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